I had to write this visualization for my college success class. I was really pleased with how it came out so I thought I would share it here.
I
walk on a beach meditating feeling the energies of sun, the salt air,
the waves a sonic vibration felt in every cell in my body. “It
has been a long hard road to get here” I think breaking my
meditation. Kneeling at the edge of the water where land meets sea as
the tide begins to turn in for the night. I turn my mind from the
excitement of cusp and reflect back on the history of my family and
my journey to this cusp attempting to grok in fullness.
My
Great Father Jacob Overman of Saxony came to America in the 1667 a
bricklayer and Quaker, he came to this country seeking religious and
personal freedom. He spent 6 years as an indentured servant. 11
generations pass in a blur of hopes, dreams, fears, joys, laughter,
tears, and sweat.
My
early life was shaped by my differences. Asthma and allergies meant
my diet was far more restricted than my peers, Homeschooling set me
apart as well. Frustrated with school I started working early.
However the time I spent working hard in various fields shaped me for
my awakening in 2007 at Danial Boon National park in Kentucky. The
total lunar eclipse had a similar energy to this day. That is a key
period that changed me while I was laid up after the accident and
began to think about life ethics and my sense of place in the
universe, a sense awakened by the eclipse. Sadly it took another 6
years to overcome fears and obstacles in order to start my education
at ECC.
I laugh thinking about my early fear of
mathematics unable to estimate how many tens of thousands of
equations I've solved to reach this point. A staggered journey across
the continent as I achieved my academic goals, leaving behind gardens
and projects. Taking knowledge, genes, experience and connections
with people and places. So much work, effort, headaches, and red tape
but all worth it. The water has reached my chest the waves tug
strongly but I remain rooted. My eyes focus as the first rays of the
moon break over the waves, the colors of the sky burn with intensity
deep rich shades. A ship breaks between me and the moon a much
smaller boat splinters off growing larger as it speeds to me. I think
about tomorrow the weeks spent sailing , finalizing information on
speaking engagements, wondering how this will all be received.”Are
you ready?” my friend asks throwing out a line “of course” I
reply feeling a sense of loss as I break connection with the land of
my birth. But the sense of wonder and awe that fill me overpower
that. There are hungry people to feed and educate, deserts to heal,
and new connections to make the world calls me its secrets and
wonders have pulled me this far and will lead me on.
